Another week begins!

I wish I could say everything has gotten easier for me at this point, but it really hasn’t. Our hearts still ache for our son, especially as we get closer to the birth of his daughter, our granddaughter, only days away.

We so wish he could be here to witness it, but that is not to be. He is in the presence of God, and who knows what he knows at this point! Perhaps, from the heavenly and eternal perspective, he already knows more about her than we do!

All I know is that I miss him every day. Believe it or not, even though it has been more than three months, it is still so hard to believe he is gone from us, at least on this earth.

We are bracing ourselves for what will be a difficult holiday season, as I have been told that the “first” Thanksgiving, Christmas, etc., are the hardest when a loved dies.

Christopher sure loved Thanksgiving! Especially the sweet potatoes with marshmallows that my wife makes so expertly each year. She always wanted to try new recipes out, but Topher was insistent that we have sweet potatoes with melted marshmallows because he had been eating them every Thanksgiving since he was a little boy.

The Bible tells us that there is feasting in heaven, so I am sure my son will have meals that will surpass ours. Will there be marshmallows in heaven? 🙂

He might even get my grandmother, Mama Stella–who is also in heaven–to prepare him some of her amazing biscuits.

Lost Boy film

We have been working on a new version of Lost Boy: The Documentary, for obvious reasons. With the death of our son, our story has changed, and it too is now part of my story.

Lost Boy was and is about redemption, and in the update, we will talk about that redemption work in Christopher’s life as well.

Topher was very involved in this film project, and he helped me, along with Cathe and Jonathan, to know what to leave in and leave out. He did all the graphics and titles for it and had been telling friends how excited he was about how the Lord was using this story.

Now it’s his story too, and he will be major part of it, whenever the new film is shown.

Lost Boy screening in Albuquerque this weekend!

We are screening a shorter verison of the Lost Boy film at Calvary Chapel of Albuquerque this weekend during their Saturday night and Sunday morning services. They are also showing the film statewide.

I will also be speaking and signing copies of Lost Boy. So if you know anyone in New Mexico, please let them know. For more information, click here.

That’s all for now.


30 thoughts on “Another week begins!”

  1. Jackie says:

    Hi Pastor Greg,

    I just wanted to share that my dear grandma became gravely ill days after Christopher’s accident. She passed about two weeks later…and so my family shares, to some extent, the same sorrow and sadness you and your family must feel at the impending arrival of the “first holidays.” I just want you to know how much your words of wisdom and your complete TRUST in God, and in His Ways, has helped us through our storm.

    Thank you pastor Greg–for being a transparent human being, yet, faithful servant.

    Our prayers go out to you and your family. As for the baby on the way (and little Stella)–what beautiful gifts: Topher’s inheritance!


  2. Kacey says:

    Hi Greg and Family~

    Yes, the “firsts” of the holidays will be a time of deep feelings – some for the reasons you shared about missing your son – little things will trigger your memory – and the tears will come. Let them come!

    And then you will look into the sweet face of your new grandbaby, and remember that God left you a wonderful part of your son to be here with you – that is a sweet kiss from the Lord, and she will bring joy and hope and the wonder of new life to you everyday –

    The promise of a new day, all reasons to keep moving on – even though you are devastated and hurting right now. It won’t always be so.

    When my two sons each got married this year without their father here to give them advice and steer them, or fill the pew seat next to me – it too, was bittersweet. But God showed up in ways that I may not have dreamed…He filled in my longing heart with more of Himself, in a way I have never known before…

    Yes, I spent the better part of the first holidays in the bathroom, trying not to let my family see the tears that wouldn’t stop…but they are dryer now. Time does help. You will get through the intensity, I promise. In a year or two, you will miss missing him this way because it will be that much longer since you saw or touched or heard him laugh..

    It has been only a few months…grieving, and the gift that it is takes time…allow yourself the tears and the memories…

    Life, soon enough, will move on in earnest. Keep him closer for now. Letting go takes time. Take all you need, and cry all your tears. They are a gift.


  3. Linda says:

    I can’t imagine the pain you’re feeling, but my heart aches for you and your entire family. I pray that His grace will minister to all of you beyond all expectations, particularly over the holiday times and other “firsts”.

    With sincerest love and prayers,
    The Owen’s in Franklin, NC

  4. Nakagawa family says:

    Pastor Greg,
    I’ve had the privilege in Tokyo by Internet for the last two years, to experience your inspirational sermons, enthusiasm, and joy in Christ and recently the heart shattering pain of losing your son. All, I want to say is a HUGE “thank you” for being a light which penetrates brighter when the darkness is thick!
    Keep surrendering and encouraging us through this battle field of life! Keep writing, sharing and preaching we can’t get enough of the power of God working in your life! For it is truly inspiring us to look heavenward more than you know!
    Rejoice in hope; be patient in affliction; be persistent in prayer.
    Romans 12:12

  5. Marian says:

    I read your blog as we are walking next to each other on this horrific journey. My 20 year old son Daniel left for heaven an hour after your son in 7/24/08. His favorite holiday was Thanksgiving.Your feelings are so raw and real. I know my son is fine but I miss him more than I thought possible. That terrible searing pain in my chest has subsided a little but comes back when I am unexpectedly ambushed by something that reminds me of him a song,news story that he would comment on or even a box of his favorite cereal. Reading God’s word and knowing that I am not alone is my comfort. God is still good.



  7. Teri says:

    God Bless you,Cathe,Jonathan,Brittany,little Stella,and baby Lucy(very soon). I will keep you all in prayer and I thank God for each one of you. Thank you for being human, honest and so open. To God Be the Glory!

  8. Linda says:

    I ache for you and your family as you approach the birth of your granddaughter, and the holidays without Christopher. It is so very hard.

    The first couple of Thanksgivings, birthdays, and Christmases we couldn’t do what we traditionally did. It made the absence of our son just too intensely painful. We did different things like packing a picnic and going down to the ocean. We hiked in the hills, and walked and talked on the beach. Our son loved the ocean and it made him feel closer to us. We had never spent Christmas day sitting in the sand, but it helped us get through a very difficult day.

    This is the 4th holiday without our dear son. It still is hard for us. Our son too had the same Thanksgiving favorite . . .sweet potatoes with melted marshmellows. I make them now again, but it is never without aching in my heart. I miss him everyday and you will miss your Christopher each and everyday until we see our children once again.

    May God give you, and your family strength, hope and peace this holiday.


  9. Anonymous says:

    Not a day goes by that we continue to pray for you and your family. Continue to rest in His word, His truth… rest in Him, you’re in God’s arms of love. What a faithful God we have!! =)

    We love you Laurie family!

  10. Kevin says:


    Hearing you talk about your son and how it still troubles you gives me the courage to share the things I have going on in my life. Which really add up to nothing. I become more grateful and more thankful to God when I hear people tell thier stories.

    Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank Him for all he has done. If only I could remember that, ha.

    This Thanksgiving will be four years since I overcame the power of my addiction to alcohol and drugs. I stopped playing God and came to realize that I have no power, and the one who has all power is God. May I find Him now.

    Since then, I’ve had my ups and downs, which is called life. Having Jesus and God to go to with my problems helps me flourish. Thank you for all you do.

    I attended your crusade in Philadelphia and since then, I have devoted my life more to Jesus and God. I read the Bible, I read other spiritual books, I attend church, and, most of all, I help others to find God. If you would’ve told me four years ago that this is what I would be doing, I would’ve laughed at you. This truly shows that “the power of God goes deep.” God did for me what I could not do for myself.

    God Bless,
    Kevin Ryan

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